Walao you know what's the worst feeling ever?

To be starving, and whacking every single thing that's served to you and feeling like a fat pig after finishing it. AAAAAND buying 2 pieces of durian cakes from Secret Recipe just because it's their seasonal cakes which we don't always get to eat.

No lah I can't eat those cakes after gobbling a whole claypot of loushifun in Murni can I? Actually, I can. But no I'm not gonna waste my 2 precious slices of durian cakes by barfing them out later.

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Omg I just spent 3 hours watching Shrek the Third!

Yeah I know who actually watches Shrek the Third for 3 freakin' hours when the show's only an hour plus?

ME! WHEN I FOUND OUT JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE IS THE VOICE OF ARTHUR!

Oh god no wonder it sounded sooooooo familiarly charming and sweet and and... I don't know I just lurrrrrve Justin Timberlake's voice I always have! I even used to fall for a guy who has a voice like JT!

I only found that out after seeing his name in the crediting part and I immediately went over to IMDB to double-confirm if he's Arthur and yes!!! It's himmmm!!!

And because I was so excited that it's him, I re-watched the whole thing. But not really entirely, only parts where Justin... I mean Arthur speaks. Ahhh can melt I tell you.

Anyway, after watching it for the 2nd time (okay, okay, 3rd), I realise Shrek is such a brilliant animation!

Who would have imagined Snow White being such a bitchy princess? Who would have thought Rapunzel actually wears a wig! Who would have thought that Puss in Boots can be such a sexy cat which speaks in a sexy low voice with a Mexican slang! And I honestly think Arthur is actually kinda hot and if that face do exist I think the next thing I'm gonna do after posting this is stalking that person with that face already. (Wait, is it me or him actually slightly resembling JT which is why I think he's hot in the first place?)

Of course the this is not as funny as the first 2 but it's good enough to have Justin Timberlake's voice =D

My mind's blank and at the same time worried about the amount of things not done.

Worried, but having absolutely no will to do a single thing about it.

I can't believe out of plain curiosity I did something really, really low today but no, totally suicidal to share it here.

I really really really need to vomit my confession to someone. I need someone to tell me I'm not totally wrong and it's ok.

 

I'm tired.

Tired of facing all these injustice shits.

Oh, so given 2 semesters a recitalist only needs to prepare 4 pieces to perform IS considered working hard (fucking bullcrap)? A person who writes thesis isn't (also bullcrap)?

Oh, so given 2 semesters a recitalist only needs to prepare 4 pieces to perform is considered working hard (bulls bulls bulls!)? A person who's taking Pengajian Utama is required to prepare some ridiculous amount of keys of scales/arpeggios/double stops/chromatics which are totally way above his/her level, PLUS 3 pieces (one of which must be memorised) PLUS side reading, PLUS WRITING A THESIS, IS NOT WORKING HARD ENOUGH?

FUCK YOU ALL LAH. STOP COMPLAINING WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT STRUGGLING MEANS.

Tired of facing some shitfaced lecturer who speaks with a very obviously fake accent PLUS broken grammar. Oh my god I swear it's the worst feeling in the world! To listen to shits like that!

I'm not trying to say I have perfect English nor prefect grammar but at least, I can fake an accent better than her WITHOUT mistakes like this,

" ... it's gonna fell on the 23rd of November 2008... "

and a lot more. Imagine someone saying that in an American-wannabe accent! URGH I WANNA CHOKE MYSELF TO DEATH! Of course, besides speaking like that she also did many more stuffs that I don't like. And I can't believe some people actually worships her?!!! Are they blind or what???

Also tired of knowing things I shouldn't, and feeling damn frustrated and angry knowing there's nothing I can do. I can't believe some people can just let others hurt them so easily, and yet pretend as if nothing has happened. Why can't they love themselves a little bit more? Why can't they think about others who are worried sick about them?

Tired of all these shitty assignments.

Tired of my dirty room and telling myself "ok I'll clean up tomorrow" every single night.

Tired of the lousy connection everywhere and trying to get connected 1235123 times.

Tired of being upset over my future; the possibility of not having the chance to do what I really want because someone took it away and that someone is the one who knew damn well what I wanted all these while. Everytime some friends of my parents talk about it, tears well my eyes and I have to hold those tears, pretend I know nothing and I do not care. Truth is I care and I mind and I feel so painful inside. I just want to close my ears and not be reminded about it again and again.

I'm so tired I think I shall go to sleep eventhough I've not showered and it's 1 am now.

P.S. 2 months. 2 more months and I'll forget all these unhappy shits for 2 months...

 

 

 

No I didn't get tagged but I just feel like doing. From Jia Meei.

My hair throughout the years a.k.a how shitty I used to look and how much better now.

2001

January - With my sis, who was just few months old! And bald hahaha. But her hair's so thick now.

I think this was the last year I had short hair. Trust me, I lived with short hair for 15 years because I have a mother who likes her daughter with short hair eventhough I wasn't studying in a chinese school back then. Everytime my hair grows slightly touching my shoulders, or my fringe slightly covering my eyes, SNIP SNIP SNIP. And I would go home crying because I thought it was really ugly and I knew I looked ugly.

December - At Genting. A year end school trip. Also a post-PMR trip. Damn fun =) Ok don't bother my stupid mouth I didn't know how to pose for a picture back then. Anyway, my hair grew longer and I forgot that it was BLUE until Esther reminded me! HAHAHAAH YES! I was that sei lala mui back then with blue hair in Genting!

2002

August - At Esther's birthday gathering. Hair was quite long already and because I didn't know anything about hairstyling, I always have them tied back in a very tight ponytail. Super boring hairstyle. Oh and also that was how fat I once was.

2003

August - At Esther's birthday gathering. Got a straightener as a birthday gift from my dad and worshiped it like mad. My hair's naturally really wavy and unruly. Straightener's like my hero back then and eversince I had it, I began letting my hair down.

2005

August - At Esther's birthday gathering. Went back to school for Form 6 so didn't do anything with my hair. It was again, long and boring. Ponytail, ponytail and ponytail everyday.

This happened somewhere after August - I got damn fed up with my long,boring and uncontrollable hair, I went into the saloon, and demanded the hairstylist to chop everything short. And I remember telling the hairstylist 'short' twice.

As you can see, I look like shit with short hair actually. I look like a man. T____T

But really I've never felt so free and light before that haircut. Even now I wish I have the guts to cut my hair short once again haih. Anyway, I kinda regretted the cut cos I really don't know how to style short hair like that.

2005

August - At Esther's birthday gathering. Ya I know it's always her birthday gathering hahahahahah ok this is the last one.

I let my short hair grow and bobbed it =D Seeeeeee I had bob hair way before the bob hair craze this year. Everyone's way behind me muahahahaha.

2006

January

February - I remember it was during Chinese New Year. I used some angpow money to get some highlights. It was my very first time getting my hair coloured the professional way. All the schoolday years I've been doing DIY (cos damn cheap mah) and been blacklisted for having coloured hair in school.

Hahaha someone once asked me if I was a rebel in school. I said I was not. I only had my hair coloured, long nails, not wearing nametag, skirt too short, and sometimes playing hooky (both not going to school and going to school but later went somewhere else oh yeah I even got caught by my dad once hahahaha). Well in my dictionary rebel means going against the teacher like screaming at them or scratching their cars or maybe throwing rude remarks at them mah.

Anywaaaay.

December - On my birthday, after Marche. Look at how much my hair grew.

2007

January - Olive brown + blonde highlights! It was the best hair colouring job I've ever had. My hair was at a healthy length, well trimmed, and plus the colour ooooh.

May - But the thing about having this light colours is that once your hair grows, it'll start to look like crap. I went for a new colour to cover the highlights - Ash brown.

Was testing on this new product from Japan or something. Overall, it did quite a good job covering the highlights. But then I slowly realised,

Some grey lowlights appeared. I think it was those blonde streaks previously.

June - Was at Melbourne and I swear my hair colour slowly faded to this colour which was so so so beautiful T_T It was the best colour I have ever had. It's this mixture of washed blonde and ash brown. I don't think I can ever get this kinda colour anymore T_T

October - Sien of the colour already because slowly, the colour faded to blonde again so I recolour them dark brown and had bangs! And received all sorts of comments about it! Actually now that I look back, it wasn't that bad and I kinda miss that bangs. But no. I don't want my forehead to sweat like a pig anymore. It's so mafan ok and especially when the fringe gets wet and sticks together eeew.

December - Got bored of my hair AGAIN and decided to highlight them but regretted it HAIHHHH. It was the WORST highlight job ever done. T_T

2008

January - Hair colour was still behaving well.

April - Sigh. Black roots + blonde = crap.

May - Colour the whole head blonde. I remember the stylist used up about 2-3 tubes for my hair because it was so damn long and so damn much.

Actually I was trying to achieve the ash brown colour in the picture in June 2007 when I was at Melbourne but the choices were nothing near it and if I really want that kinda ash tone the stylist said I have to bleach my hair for dunno how many times and it still doesn't guarantee that I can get the colour I want. And even if I do, the colour will not stay because I've bleached my hair.

Which is true. I used to bleach my hair for those highlights and now, whenever I try to cover them all with a darker colour, the darker colour will fade later and the highlighted streaks will come back. T____T

Yesterday - Black roots + split ends galore. Ewwwww.

So,

short hair - checked
bob - checked
long hair - checked
super long hair - checked
blonde - checked
brown - checked
black - checked

What's next?

Don't say going bald. I've seriously thought of doing so because... I think it's damn cool lah.

But looking at the shape of my head and my face, I better not otherwise my parents might just disown me. Don't even talk about my parents, my siblings will be the first to disown me. The remarks I had when they first saw me with those bangs were bad enough. And going bald? Heh.

Unless one day I wake up looking like Natalie Portman lah then that's a different case.

Walao looking at the way I colour my hair... will I ever like... get brain cancer or something? In year 2007 itself I coloured my hair four times! Freaking FOUR times! Fantastic four! wtf

And I plan to colour my hair somewhere at the end of this year which makes it 2 times for this year. Hrm not too bad la I dunno heard from who that we at most can colour our hair 3 times a year more than that is considered not healthy. Is that true??

Oh I also heard from a lecturer (I HATE) that colouring hair makes one not so smart. IS THAT TRUE???

 

 

I must show off because this phone is too pretty.

Stainless steel.

Partially stainless steel.

Notice how much the phone resembles LG Shine? =) Except that this one offers way better functions.

I like my phone to have shiny and reflective surfaces. So that I can use it as a mirror when I need one =) Of course it makes the phone looks cool as well lah. Even my previous pink clamshell phone is reflective.

There's one of this in black but it didn't quite get me when I was first introduced to it until the salesperson took out this colour; steel and white. I totally fell in love with the whole simplicity of it. The whole thing looks so simple yet cool at the same time hahahah. And because it also resembles LG Shine, the phone I initially intended to buy, that gave an extra point.

The only problem now is to keep it scratch-free. =( which is damn hard because I wear a stainless steel ring on my right hand and I'm a righty. There are times when I get so paranoid that I'll accidentally scratch the phone with my ring, I take my ring out and put it on my left hand's finger and when I'm done with the phone I put the ring back on my right hand. Haih. Where got people use a phone until so mafan one!

By the way, my sister got her hair cut today. We all know how chinese school girls are not allowed to have long hair right?

When I saw (and got shocked seeing) her new haircut, before I could even say anything, she said,

" Now I look like 'Hong Yi' (from Moonlight Resonance) "

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH. If only her bangs are a little thicker and straighter.

Oh yes, that brat catches up with the latest Hong Kong TVB dramas together with me, the siblings and grandma.

I'm now cleaning up my music folder. Walao eh I didn't know I've been keeping so many rubbish songs all these while and they've been occupying all the spaces of my harddisk. Rubbish songs as in songs I never listen to lah. Dammit I've been cleaning it for the past 4 hours and I'm not even half way through it.

And for dunno what reason my ITunes cannot locate certain songs which is IN my harddisk and so songs I want in my ipod CANNOT be transfered into my ipod. Grrrr. I hate complicated shits like these.