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yahoo cos last year i didn't do. lazy mah. yalah last year didn't do so this year damn happy got time do lah i'm that easily satisfied/happified (whatever lah) can or not! lalala.

well well how should i begin? so many things happened this year. (cheh as if nothing happened in the previous years such a stupid phrase to start with *sweat -_-||)

anyway this is a damn long and boring entry with words, links and nothing else cos it's my long-winded grandmother's story from early this year until now so i've warned.

okay firstly there's my year 2007 resolution i made early this year, (CLICK HERE) which i can proudly strike 6 out of 10 i mentioned! applause please 6 out of 10 okay that's more than 50% already. biggest regret for not being able to achieve any one of it is of course not being able to score more than 3.70 points as vowed for 2 semesters after that fucking incident with mr. pussyface. but anyhow i've seen more than enough of shits being in um for 1 and a half years and another 1 and a half years more to come. seriously, i dare say besides finding great friends whom i can make myself go through everyday in uni with a smile, everything and everyone else are a fucking pain in the ass and downright disappointing. and i will always remind myself, it's ok not to be in the dean's list. after all, it's just um. a freaking government's university. i swear, if ever i get accepted in a university outside malaysia, if i were to redo my degree just because this um's degree cannot be accepted, i won't mind.

moving on to february, Jie left for Melbourne and i guess you all know damn well what happened. i was really grateful to be granted the chance to be with him that few days before he left. well, wasn't really granted the chance/permission cos i was supposed to stay at hostel. so my parents didn't know i was actually really near home that few days. aiyah whatever lah it's not that i'm doing something illegal also.

so, yeah he left on 1st of february and days have never been the same since. it was really hard for that few weeks, i've been crying non-stop reminiscing the things we could have been doing if he was still around. but anyway, i got over it sooner than i thought. it's not like he's dead or not coming back forever. it's just a part of me which misses his presence like mad that's all.

i remember it was a thursday, 9.50 flight. i told myself not to cry and stay strong cos i didn't wanna lose it in front of his family. i did pretty well, until that few minutes before he had to leave. we hugged and almost immediately tears ran down like waterfall and i wanted so much to tell him "don't go" and hug him to myself and wish time will stop there and then. of course nothing came true and he left for good. that night after sending him off i slept in his room and honestly, i have never stepped into that room again.

that room which reminds me of every single thing, the moment i opened the door and looked through the darkness and emptiness, i bawled my heart out again. i never knew the feeling of lying down alone on that same bed we both hugged each other to sleep just the night before would be so painful. i cried myself to sleep that night before leaving the next morning to uni for an early class. and i still remember how my friends laughed at me when the looked at my face. i wore that nike sweater to class. remember that sweater? that big black nike sweater i made you gave me cos i wanted to keep something which has your scent so i whenever i think of you i can have a sniff at it.

then he finally got his internet line and we got to communicate virtually. before he left i bought myself a laptop (VAIO C Series Seashell White if you must know nyehehehehe) just because i wanted to stay connected with him eventhough i won't be at home but will be staying at uni's hostel. well, that's not really the main reason for myself to get a laptop ok i really needed one i'm a uni student mah how to survive without having one! and he bought me lots of other gadgets such as webcam, headset and a router so that i can webcam with him when i'm home. (CLICK) In that same entry I blogged about my Day 1 trip to Singapore with Jie. Day 2 was somewhat later (CLICK).

not long after that i had my encounter with the world's biggest loser. let me introduce to you... drums roll please... jeng jeng jeng jeng! MR. LOSER! okay don't wtf at me you gotta read this entry to know the story. (CLICK)

on valentine's, i met up with aileen cos jie said i was supposed to get something from her. it was supposed to be my surprise valentine's gift when he's not around but i wasn't really surprised already. long story, not gonna mention. and i passed him my valentine's gift through aileen too. he told me he had been going to the gym regularly so i got him 2 wristbands and something i shall not share here. =) also, i included a note inside the gift asking him to read this "love letter" i posted on my blog. (CLICK)

on a few days before chinese new year, there's always this spring cleaning which i hate most. why? (CLICK) then i also blogged about chinese new year eve, first and second day filled with lots of FOOD pictures. (CLICK) and what i shamelessly did on the third day (CLICK). and i also got scolded for buying a pair of shoes during chinese new year (CLICK). and i spent my angpow on a whole lot of things namely a brand new handphone! (CLICK)

there was this day i went to a club with amy and something happened. i did not elaborate on it and i will not elaborate about it also now. it's the past and i'll try my best to forget it cos it was something really stupid which i did. something which kinda broke Jie's heart and i am really sorry about it. guess all you want but don't accuse my without a proof. this entry was filled with lots of nice pictures so i'll just put a link to it. (CLICK) well they may be nothing nice to some people but at least i like looking through them.

i made a friend test and someone scored 100%! (CLICK)

i dressed up and got all pretty and nice for this event held at hilton pj. it's called MAMBI, now i know. (CLICK) then there's this entry filled with lots of pictures namely my dad's birthday and uni's music showcase (CLICK)

and this issue which i made a big fuss about (CLICK) but seriously, it's over and i don't give a damn about it anymore. honest. i even posted an entry to end it all. (CLICK)

then came the time when i need to ask for permission to go to melbourne to visit jie and i was cracking my head hard thinking how to ask (CLICK).

HAHAHAHHA i was looking through my previous posts and found one damn stupid one where i complained about how my parents hurt my feelings by laughing at my pimply face and i even whined about how bad i cried about it. on that same day i got my permission to go to melbourne so what the fuck right! (CLICK) and then i posted an entry about how it all happened. i mean how i got the permission lah (CLICK) and then no it wasn't the end about my parents dissing my face. (CLICK) and (CLICK) aaaaand (CLICK)

oooh i tried making lasagne but not really a succesful one. (CLICK)

hahahaahahh i found another childish entry where i felt so happy to be able to scold back my parents for something which was their fault. (CLICK)

re-colored my hair ash brown. (CLICK)

ran away from home because i was too frustrated with my parents. (CLICK) i really did ran away from home. i was away for about a week cos i was playing as a first violinist in my uni's symphony orchestra. we were playing for this huge event i cant remember what was it but the most prominent thing which i remember was i was paid RM 500 for it ahhahaha kaching $$$ got $$$ i sure remember one. it's all in this entry, (CLICK), together with my trip to teluk intan where i met up with adelle. walao ate until my stomach so full it felt like bursting seriously.

then came june, the night before i flew off to melbourne i posted an entry where i went redboxing with esther and we had thai food (CLICK). right after touching down, i blogged about the successful surprise i gave Jie (CLICK). i also blogged about how i usually spend my days in melbourne if we weren't going for any day trips (CLICK). and i also spent 3 fucking hours shivering and slaping myself to stay awake at 3 am in the super cold morning to post an entry filled with lots of thumbnail pictures cos it's our fifth anniversary! (CLICK) then i posted a day 4, 5 and 6 entry (CLICK), day 7 and 8 (CLICK), day 9, 10 and 11 (CLICK), day 12 which was also our fifth anniversary! (CLICK), and lastly day 13 and 14 (CLICK).

there's this entry i blog about every most of the pink stuffs i have but actually the main purpose of the entry was to show off my ipod i bought from melbourne airport (CLICK)

oh yah this year i party damn kao much loh! probably it's because i got to stay out lah so no curfew for me. here's an entry of my home at pj for the moment (CLICK). went to maison for the first time (CLICK), 2nd time (CLICK) and 3rd time (CLICK). then we went to qba(CLICK), first time at the loft (CLICK), and 2nd time at the loft (CLICK).

this year celebrated a lot alot of birthdays walao i tell you can go bankrupt lah everyone's birthday almost at the same time one. here's one though i didn't like this girl but i still posted this entry up cos there were lots of nice pictures (CLICK). then there's esther's which i got her a bausch stainless steel dragonfly pendant (CLICK), cat's (CLICK), cheng choo's (CLICK), samuel's (CLICK), Jie's (CLICK), chooi yin's (CLICK), adelle's(CLICK) which i made a cake for her (CLICK), yi jing's (CLICK)

ooh biggest decision ever made this year! chopping off my fringe and having bangs! oh yeah i also recoloured it (CLICK)

i found this very angry entry about my dad and everyone around me. well, i was not at my best mood and probably a little paranoid but whatever i wrote, they were all 100% real.(CLICK)

music showcase at um's city campus (CLICK)

my first timberland (CLICK)

meeting the greatest jackass of the year (CLICK)

first time at greenbox (CLICK)

and then came the day before my birthday which i was really really unhappy due to some reasons i did not mention. posted an entry in livejournal which i'll not link here cos it's only viewable to my livejournal friends. but after receiving the presents i thought it's not that bad afterall =) (CLICK). a day after my birthday me and a group of uni friends headed up to genting and we got really really wasted that night (CLICK). right after coming back down to kl me, adelle and cheng choo went to teluk intan and got wasted for another 3 more days (CLICK) and then on the day i came back from teluk intan, i went to klia to pick jie who returned from melbourne. this time he surprised me with something! (CLICK).

well that's about it.