1. Having IBS is the WORST feeling in the world. No, in life. I'm half dead already TT____TT

2. I was very happy yesterday because (no I did not have an orgasm) the whole family went out and have dinner together, along with my brother's gf. =) After that we went to the mall and did some shopping together also. =) =) And she(not his gf) started talking to me already. =) =) =) Ok I know not many will understand the joy but if you know what happened last week you will understand how I feel.

3. I'm supposed to bank in my paycheque and clean up my junk and start packing today but I just had 4 trips in the toilet just moments ago and I'm already half dead. TT_____TT Will start cleaning later. Ok actually more than 4, I lost count TT_____TT

4. I'm going to Sunway Lagoon with my sisters this Friday. Agreed to accompany her(my youngest sister, yes the ULTRAMAN) since I won't be around to celebrate her birthday with her. Do you know that the entrance ticket is now RM 60++??? And if you wanna visit the petting zoo you gotta add RM 10! Expensive like babi only, but luckily my dad's paying for it hohohohoho. Petting zoo's fun! I went there years ago with Wk to visit Manda who's working there.

5. 6 more days!!!

7. I'm so excited and at the same time very fan cos I still have not settled down with my proposal yet. I've handed in one but I was supposed to think of 2 more thesis titles as spares in case I have troubles writing thesis of the submitted proposal. Haih don't care lah enjoy first come back only suffer lah wtf.

8. After removing my mascara yesterday (read previous entry), I reapplied and yesterday I went to sleep without removing them again! Gawd why am I so fucking lazy.

9. My coloured contact lens which I ordered has not arrived yet and I'm worried if it won't reach in time before I leave =(

10. As expected, this year my parents won't be able to send me to the airport again because my sister got to attend a rehearsel at the time I was supposed to check in. Oh well, guess I need to ask my brother or my sister's friend for a hand.

HHAAHHAA I just realised I forgot about no. 6.

6. My ass is burning like fire and I stink and I'm gonna go shower after I rest my ass for a while.

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Today is the 25th of the month.

Do you remember how long it has been?

=)

See you next week! =)  =)  =)

Tagged by Gwen again.

Starting time: 18:36
Name: Choi Ee Von
Sisters: 2
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 4/5
Height: 5 feet 2

Where do you live: Klang
Favourite drinks: Iced milo topped with lots of milo powder aka Milo dinosaur.
Favourite breakfast: 2 Half-boiled eggs + roti bakar with pandan kaya and butter + the said milo.

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes
Swam in the ocean: Huh? Does snorkeling counts?
Fallen asleep at school: Too many times.
Broken someone's heart: Think so.
Fell off your chair: HAHAHAHA OF COURSE! Don't we all just love sitting with two out of the four legs of the chair during our primary school days =D
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Nope.
Saved e-mails: Yes.

What is your room like: A room wtf.
What's right beside you: Left side - Dressing table. Right side - cupboard.
What is the last thing you ate: Chocolate.

Ever had chicken pox: Thank goodness yes.
Sore throat: Having it now.
Stitches: Nope.
Broken nose: Noooooo.

Do you believe in love at first sight: Er, no.
Like picnics: Never tried before so I would love to.
Who was were the last person/people you danced with: Chiew Lin, a dance major senior in uni during Jazz Dance exam.
Last made you smile: Wk, cos he was smiling like a sohai in the video.
You last yelled at: One of my students. Sorry =(

Today did you...
talk to someone you like: Talking to him right now. =)
kissed anyone: =(
get sick: sore throat and cough lor.
talk to an ex: No lah.
miss someone: I am always missing someone.
eat: Abuthen?

Best feeling in the world: An orgasm. HAHHAHAHAHAAHAHH no lah joking. Urm, to sit together with everyone in the family and chat happily without a single worry at all.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No.
What's under your bed: Nothing.
Who do you really hate: You mean with a vengeance? One of the gay lecturers in uni.
What time is it now?: 18:51

Random.
Is there a person who is on your mind now: No cos I'm talking to him right now.

That stupid bitch on top is so thin now thinner than me some more cibai one.

Do you have any siblings: I THOUGHT I JUST ANSWERED THIS?
Do you want children: I don't know.
Do you smile often: Yes =D
Do you like your hand-writing: Yes.
Are your toe nails painted: No.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Anyone in my house's except for my maid's, my bestfriends' and of course boyfriend's.
What color shirt are you wearing now: Black.
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Teaching Estelle violin.
I can't wait till: I SEE LOW WEI KIAT IN TULLAMARINE AIRPORT ON 2ND JUNE 2008 IN THE MORNING.
When did you cry last: 3 days ago during a fight in the house.

Are you a friendly person: Yes if I know you personally.
Do you have any pets: Used to.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Melbourne.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Abuthen.
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Never.
What are you doing right now?: Answering this la what else cibai.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Nope.
Can you handle the truth?: I slowly deal with it.
Are you too forgiving?: No.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Neither. I'm closer to my siblings, friends and boyfriend. They know more things than my parents do.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: My sisters.
How many people can you say you've really loved?: Loved ah that means passed already? Erm none lah. I've only had like crushes and my first bf wasn't really based on love it was because I was still too naive.
Do you eat healthy?: Never.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Sadly, no. I've only had one ex and that was like... 10 or 11 years ago!
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Boyfriend or friends. When I'm down all I need is a company to keep me entertained. Just saying nothing and listening to me whining is enough.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Both. I'm quiet when you don't know me, loud when you do.
Are you confident?: Not really.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
* Holding hands secretly in Moral class with this so called exboyfriend hahaahaha. Why only during Moral class because last time during Moral period all the Muslim students will go to another class for their Agama class and then the non-Muslims get to sit wherever they like. So this exboyfriend will ask me to sit with him and we'll hold hands under the table WTF.
* Believing that I'll be Sailormoon someday HAHAHAHAHAH.
* Worshipping the Spice Girls like crazy.
* Watch WWF (World Wrestling Federation) WTF WTF and remember names like Triple H, Keane, Stone Cold, Undertaker, Hardy Boys, Rikishii, Low Blow, The Choke and whatever lah wtf.
* Playing "Fun-Fair", "Shark", "Ghost" and Hide-and-Seek with my neighbour's kids in my house. My room to be exact.

5 things on my to-do list today:
* Remove mascara hahahaahahahah if you read my previous entry you'll know what I mean.
* Look for my boots and start packing.
* Do a to-do list in my blog.
* Play Diablo2 hahahahahhahahaaha I know I've been playing this since like forever but no I'm currently playing a harder mode already so it's different.
* No more lah now already almost 8 pm where got time to do so many things some more.

5 snacks I enjoy:
* Milo powder.
* Manggis.
* CoffeeBean's Caramel Ice Blended Coffee or Starbuck's Caramel Frappuccino.
* Ice cream.
* Doughnuts.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
* Give a few millions to my parents, grandmas and siblings
* Few millions to charity of any form.
* Buy gifts for my friends.
* Buy things I want.
* Keep the rest in bank.

5 of my bad habits:
* Sleeping at 3 and waking up at 11.
* Procrastinate and do things at the very last minute.
* Spending money like splashing water.
* Lack of determination to do things I like.
* Lazy. E.g. removing makeup.

5 places I have lived in:
* Old home at Batu Belah
* Current home at Teluk Pulai
* Nanny's when I was little at Meru
* Grandma's at Southern Park
* Wk's apartment in Melbourne and also house in Chi Liung.

5 jobs I've had:
* Violin teacher
* Piano teacher
* Daughter aka shop assistant aka money-keeper
* Sex slave? HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHA wtf. Joking. Slave at home I mean, doing chores.
* Housewife?

5 people I tag:
Anybuddy lah.

Oh let me introduce you to someone.

ULTRAMAN!

That's my sister beside me aka ULTRAMAN. She made the "mask" which was supposed to be a painter's hat from the origami book my dad bought her. And she made it extra big so that she can wear it, and then she cut holes for her eyes. And the bitch is so thin I'm so jealous.

These few days have been a mess at home. I shall not go into details on what happened because I simply do not think it is right to badmouth people who are the reason why I exist, not publicly at least. No matter how much I hated their thoughts and beliefs and sometimes just who they are, deep inside somewhere there is still something called 'love' flapping in between my cumulation of all negative shits like anger, frustration, sadness, disappointment and hate.

Imagine yourself being at home but nobody bothers to ask you to go out and eat dinner together. Nobody wants to open the door for you when you come back home having no house keys. Nobody wants to talk to you at all. (You should know when I say "nobody" I meant "them", some certain people whom I thought would be the last people in the world to treat me like some invisible crap) And you are treated like that when you have done absolutely NOTHING wrong at all.

There, if you can just imagine yourself in that few situations above, trust me you'll be in my shoes and trust me also it sucked and it hurt me so badly that I couldn't even think of why it hurts at first. Before I even begin to think about it tears were already gushing out uncontrollably. And then the next thing I knew was my eyes were already swollen like char siew bao.

Enough of wallowing in my self pity when it doesn't and won't change a single shit about them. I'm making myself to "be" okay.

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Tagged by http://omfgwenz.blogspot.com/

7 Random Facts About Me.
* I'm having mascara on my lashes now and I bet I'm gonna forget to remove them before I hit the sack later. Okay I never forget, I'm just too lazy.
* I don't like to wear bra. Sometimes I can just have nothing underneath my clothes when I go out for classes or to teach. Of course I'll make an effort to cover the nips lah moron. Stop looking at me like a freak. And don't you ever dare stare at my tits now that you know about this fact.
* I have never been to a professional to get my brows done. Not even threading. Everything is done by my own bare hands with the help of my trusty old tweezer and a mini surgical scissors I always steal from my dad.
* Contrary to how healthy my hair looks in pictures, it is basically so damaged that I won't even consider it as hair anymore due to the continuous colouring, highlighting, blowdrying and styling. Split ends now do not only occur at the end of the strand of hair, it splits right at the middle and that's why my hair breaks easily now. T_______T
* I can paint quite well. I used to go for art class when I was 7 till I finished From 5. Yeap 10 years in an art school.
* I learned how to play the piano when I was 7 and only picked up the violin when I was 16.
* I teach violin and a bit of piano on Fridays (5.30 - 9.30 pm), Saturdays (12 - 5 pm) and Sundays (9 - 1 pm). Yes I almost have no life but if I don't teach and earn the cash to support my spending habits I will REALLY have NO LIFE AT ALL.

7 Things That Scare Me.
* Geckos. You know, those home-bred lizards? They are super fucking gross my whole body itches at the very sight of them. Don't let me get started on their eggs oh gawd.
* Roaches. Do I need to say more? I had a terrible experience once in William's, a food stall in somewhere I can't remember. Guys (you know who you are), shhhh. Roaches are super fucking disgusting. Whether or not they fly or they don't or they're alive or dead.
* Verbal/physical fight in a family. I don't think I need to elaborate on this.
* When any of my precious possessions, car/house keys and important documents go missing/self-destructing.
* When boyfriend/bestfriends get angry at me, or when they raise their voices at me or anything.
* Watching a video of live beheading, caning and all the other shits you'll never get to see publicly. My brother is very good at getting these kinda videos and he just love showing them to me.
* Dreaming of my hair being cut wtf. I'm serious! There was once I dreamed of my hair being cut and I quickly woke up to find myself in tears!

7 Random Music At The Moment.
* KAT-TUN's Real Face. (It's a Japanese song)
* KAT-TUN's Keep The Faith. (Another Japanese song)
* KAT-TUN's Don't U Ever Stop. (...)
* Boogie Nights, my alarm ringtone which is a soundtrack of a Japanese drama composed by Kono Shin.
* Boogie Nights, my phone's ringtone which is same as the previous but it's an upbeat and a more lively version.
* A Japanese song which is stuck in my head but I don't know the title but some words like "dai jou bu... ". It's a soundtrack of Gokusen 3 (a dorama).
* ... I ran out of random music.

7 Things I Say The Most.
* What the fuck?
* Jioh I fat already
* Fuck off larhh!
* Cibaiiii.
* .... kuai lan..... (to be inserted in phrases like "How the fuck I know!" in Cantonese like "Ngo kuai lan chi ah!")
* Sot ah!
* Haiyah dunno lah! (No pun intended, it is really something I always say)

7 "First Time" Things I Ever Did.
* Piercing my navel. The reason was because Wk once said he likes it. Though my tummy is not presentable (YET wtf), I still keep the piercing. Having it does not simply mean there is a need to show it to the world.
* Took a flight to Melbourne to visit Wk last year, and took a flight back, ALL ALONE. (Well, this one won't be considered as "first time" anymore in 8 days time =D)
* Kept a pet which was a very pretty hamster. It died because I think some cibai cat wanted to eat it, the cat must have went to rough, the whole cage crashed onto the floor and my hamster must have hit or knocked somewhere hard and died. =(
* Slammed the toilet door hard behind my nagging mother and god knows what happened after that.
* Falling really hard for a guy who used to sit in my school bus for 2 years, whom I don't even get to know personally even until now.
* Something really, really bad and embarassing when I was 7 or 8. I shall not mention it.
* Something also really, really terrible and shameful last year. Also, I shall not mention it.

7 People To Do This.
Anyone lah I'm not in the mood to tag people.

There was a fight yesterday.

Finally she realised as a mother she knows nothing about her son and has to find things out from his girlfriend. And realised she was wrong about him. He and she were wrong about him. I would feel like the world's lousiest mother if I was her. Maybe that's why I never wanted to have kids. Because I don't want to fail as a mother. And I don't want my kids to feel like what we feel.

But he, he was stucked with his stupid ego. He refused to take matters into serious thinking. He refused to understand why his son even cried and he refused to listen to what his son has to say.

I only heard all the screaming and yelling and I don't even know why I cried. 

As much as I wanted to scream at them and let them know about my feelings, it hurts more to hear and watch all these verbal fight between 2 blood-related people. Or even very closely-related people.

I don't understand why are things only happening when I'm about to leave. Last year something similar happened but not as serious at this time around's.