She screamed again and I really wanted to get out of the house with so much determination but there's no one around to share my feelings with. Friends are all busy, Wk is miles away.

Suddenly I felt so lonely.

And without realising, something warm ran down my cheeks and dropped on my thighs.

='(

Have you ever felt so annoyed and irritated at home that you lock yourself in the toilet, sit underneath the shower and count to 1000 before you come out of the toilet, just because you don't want to look at them?

Have you ever felt so painful to hear someone wishing you were never born?

I'm feeling a little crappy.

...

Okay I'm feeling super crappy that I don't even want to fall asleep even though I'm super exhausted.

But I can't spill it out here. Because you're reading.

 It's ok, I'll be fine.

I'll treat myself more drama series, or play some stupid games, or bake something great, or just sit and do nothing at all and wait till 13 days pass by swiftly

 and I'll be revived once again

 in the arms where I belong.

What makes things worse is I'm starving like hell but I cannot eat not because I disallow myself but because I am unable to. And I don't understand why I drink 2 litres of water everyday and I'm having sore throat.

 It's ok, I'll be fine.

Sometimes I like to believe that people like me for who I am. At times I hate being who I am.

I slept at 8 am this morning intending to just take a short nap and wake up for my class at 9 but I woke up at 10 due to my ringing phone.

" Hello? Eh where are you? Your turn to present already! "

"HAAAHH! OMG OK OK I COME NOW! " (I was half awake, half asleep, panicking like a mad bull and got my ass up immediately)

" Hahahahaa no lah not yet start but going to start already. "

" Hooooooohhhhh what the fuck... ok I come now. "

So I collapsed on the bed forgetting to set the alarm to wake myself up and without that call I would have slept like a dead pig through the morning and missed the class. Not class actually, graded presentation plus one submission some more. All thanks to Cat who called me and buzzed me out of my lala land.

Then I was already late one. I quickly packed everything up and realised I have one more paper not printed yet when I've already kept my laptop and everything. Then had to take out and set up and fast fast print lah.

THEN DUNNO WHY THE STUPID LAPTOP CANNOT OPEN OH MY FUCKING GOODNESS. I ALMOST CRIED TT______TT

Don't know what happened lah I reset a few times it only went back to hibernate and when I switch it on there's only black screen and my mouse's cursor. Then after a few tries finally the whole thing managed to restart and finally got my thing printed.

Haih damn fucking 9 kan jeong loh. Almost had a heart attack. If my laptop really died, I would have failed one subject cos my presentation stuffs and my assignment which I was supposed to print was all inside my laptop. And this is a great lesson which says never do things last minute. Forever never ever.

Oh last night I spent the whole night finishing up my presentation and assignment which was to be dued today so that's why only got to sleep at 8 am today. Actually I had a whole week to do that but I did not and I don't need to repeat why.

... I'll just tell anyway.

Cat and I call each other dai sei cos got so much time to finish all these submissions but never use it and instead wasted it to watch drama and more drama.

Dorama(drama in japanese) for me. I've been watching dorama after dorama I know how to speak informal Japanese already!

Yukan Club - I just finished this this morning. Damn funny and sometimes lame but got hot japanese guys that's all I need =D

I shall go finish up my last composition for tomorrow and I'll be as free as a bird. Okay a bird in a cage since I still have proposals to settle haih T____T

1.How well do u know your man?
I know him more than his bestfriends and his parents do. Oh yes I do.

2. His age
22 this year.

3. His Middle Name
Wei! HAHHAHAH sounded like I'm calling someone.

4. How long have you been together?
Officially, 5 years 10 months 17 days till now. But it was more than that lah not counting the more-than-friends-but-not-couple-yet days.

5. How long did you know each other before you started dating?
Erm, a few months, I can't remember. I knew him since beginning of high school but only got to know him personally in Form 4 which was the year when we started seeing each other. We were even in the same class in Form 3 but he sat right in front of the teacher and I'm always at the back row and I always thought he was a nerd and the teacher's pet haahahaha.

6. What physical feature attracted you to him first?
His hair. He used to be invisible to me before we personally got to know each other (yeah even when we were in the same class) and then during early 2002 (the year we got together) he changed his hairstyle and that's the first thing which caught my sight. But that was not what I fell for lah.

7. Hair color
Jet-black. Only dyed it for him once when I was at Melbourne with him. Now it's all black again.

8. Eyes
Dark brown.

9. Are you "in love"
Contrary to how long we've been together, I am still very much in love. I'm in love everyday with him even when I only get to see him in the computer.

10. Do your parents like him
They don't show it but I think naturally parents will like their daughter's boyfriend who doesn't smoke, drink, gamble nor curse, and maintains a satisfactory result in his studies. AND has black hair, no tattoos and piercings wtf. And of course loves their daughter unconditionally. =)

11. Does it matter?
Yes it does. It started off quite difficult because my parents thought I was too young to have a boyfriend when we started dating and they didn't like him.

12. Do you trust him?
With my everything and everything I have.

13. Does he let you wear his shoes?
Even if he does it won't fit my feet. 

14. Do you have a shirt of his that you sleep with?
A sweater but I don't sleep with it I just look, touch and sniff it when I miss him. OH WAIT! I Think I DO have a shirt of his that I sleep with! In fact I suddenly remember I have TWO some more but I'll just show one since I'm wearing it:

Both shirts are my sleeping shirts. =) I happened to wear them when I was at his house during some impromptu stayover and when I took it back I never return it to him. Hahahaha I have this bad habit that I easily forget if I've borrowed things from anyone so if you lend me somehting, please remember to ask it back from me if I don't return it to you. Unless it's money, that one will surely remember.

15. Can you picture having kids with him?
I did but actually I hate kids. But I think being pregnant is the most beautiful thing in the world. So I don't know lah.

(The more I do this tag the more I'm beginning to deviate to talking more about myself when it's supposed to be about him.)

So yes I did picture myself having kids with him and my imagery kids have bushy eyebrows, thin frame, very obedient (all his traits) and big eyes (mine).

16. Are you happy to be with him?
I always feel like I'm the luckiest girl/woman in the world to have him.

17. Does he have any tattoos?
No and never. =( That means it'll be a bit hard for me to get one.

18. Does he have any scars that you know of?
Yes, one on his wrist which is v-shaped cut by a scissors his brother was playing with.

19. Is he a party dude or stay at home kind of guy?
Stay at home definitely. Not to say momma's boy or what, he prefers to have a drink in a bar and chill than to rub shoulders with lots of sticky and sweaty people in a smoke infested club. If the party means like birthday parties or farewell parties that sort, then of course he'll go lah.

20.Is he Outgoing or Shy?
Neither. He's just ignorant. Anything that has nothing to do with him will not catch his attention unless it's something very attractive like ME HAHAHAHAHA. He's not outgoing but he's friendly. He's not shy but not voluntary.

21. Would he hang out with YOUR friends?
If he will not I would have dumped him long time ago.

22. Does he sing?
Not really but thank goodness he's not tone deaf and he sings in tune.

23. Do you know how to turn him on?
Yes I do, doink.

24. How many times a day do you tell him you love him?
He does it (saying he loves me everytime we communicate) but I rarely do. No reason and when I don't say I love him does not mean I don't. Love does not mean saying it to prove it. And when I rarely say it, it shows how much I mean it when I do.

25. Picture of him:

HAHHAHAHHAHHA no lah joking. But Junno is so cute I cannot stop stalking him.

Actually I got a secret. My boyfriend is...

BATMAN!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ok serious one. Actually actually Wei Kiat looks like this:

Ok stop looking at my damaged hair lah.

I tag?

Anyone who has a boyfriend and think you know him very well and dying to boast about it. =)

What? This tag's meant for it right?