omg i stink like shit. for real. even my brother said it to me. thanks to all the cleaning, baking, not showering, and lausai-ing (diarrhoea) today. really worked like a cow. now i know how it feels to work so hard and gets to eat only grass in the end T_T and then be slaughtered and cooked and eaten by humans T___T i shall not have any more beef in the future.
so far i've already restrained myself from eating lamb when i discovered that lamb is actually a baby sheep. it didn't occur to me all these while that lamb is actually a baby sheep cos in chinese we call lamb and mutton the same thing; "yeong" in cantonese. i always take lamb and mutton for the equal (as in tasty la). dunno which day i realised they're not the same. lamb is a baby sheep, mutton is a goat. and goats are not cute wtf we're not even talking about a sheep, a fully grown animal. we're talking about innocent younglings.
imagine yourself as a kid, you haven't even seen enough of the world, know enough of things like how to make babies wtf and then you get skinned alive and being slaughtered and cooked/stewed/grilled etc. to make it easier, imagine mary slaughters and cooks her lamb which its fleece was as white as snow and bring it to school to eat. isn't it cruel???
to make it worse, my boyfriend is a huge lover of lamb shank, lamb chop, grilled lamb and basically, anything LAMB. the other day we were having bbq at his place, to convince me into eating the barbecued lamb he had to tell me it's not lamb but just mutton; when he knew I KNEW it was lamb -_-''
sorry i digressed. this is supposed to be a ranting entry.
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yesterday was spent with making cookies the whole day. and i got really pissed off with something.
a few days ago i made these butter cookies and altogether there were 1big+2small containers for all.
then she told me she's taking the small containers to give my grandma and dunno who. so left the big one. any sane person would think 1 big container is enough to celebrate cny. 1 big container of butter cookies PLUS all the other big containers of other types of cookies. about 5-6 of it. ENOUGH RIGHT???
NO! then later she asked me to make more cos she wanna give this aunty lah that aunty lah yadda yadda.
i got really pissed off at first cos why do we have to give those aunties these cookies which i had to spent so much time and effort to make? i only made these cookies for my family and i will only make enough for my family. maybe a little extra for my grandma that's all. what's with making for all the other relatives i only get to see like once or twice a year?
who she thinks i am? a bloody baker who sits and does nothing but bakes cookies and GIVE to people? it's not about having the ingredients and all, it's about time, sweat and effort given out, and in the end nothing's gained. and then, GIVE everything away! wtf?!
fine. I decided to make afterall cos i can't say no. so yesterday i planned to finish all the baking. was making almond crispy's batter when i realised i had to go bank in some money to some things i bought online. and besides, i needed to get some extra ingredients to make the extra butter cookies for those aunties. mom said she wants to follow me get the ingredients, i was ok cos she's paying anyway. so she was in my car, then she suddenly said she wanted to go to jusco to get some "ba gua", er, barbecued dried meat. she said just go get the ba gua then can leave already, very fast one.
when we reached jusco, after buying the ba gua, she went into the market, grabbed some things, then later demanded for a trolly. which means she's spending more time and buying more things. so in conclusion, she wasted my time i was supposed to spend on making her bloody butter cookies. FINE.
after buying everything we came back, i continued baking. i tell you butter cookies are not easy to make. a lot of work one. yesterday's batter was very sucky cos we bought another kind of butter. the ones i needed was sold out. the outcome wasn't really nice.
then meanwhile i was also making some almond crispy.
after almost finish using up the almond crispy batter, the total came up to 1big+2 small again. i thought 1 big container would be enough for our family so i decided to pack a small one and give it to wk's family. the other small one my grandma asked me to give it to my this aunty whose husband/my uncle is currently hospitalised. i actually was not keen in giving her but considering her current condition, her husband's not around to help her with work and taking care of her kids, i thought it was ok to give one to her. i told my mom about it.
then she was unhappy. she said there're already not enough of almond crispy so if i want to give it to other people i better make more. she asked me if there're extra ingredients. i said maybe. then she asked me to make more. and she said don't give to other people right in front of my grandma you know! it was so fucking offensive! giving no face to my grandma at all!
i was damn pissed lah! 1 big container not enough meh? how much can we eat? people only wanted to take one, liddat also cannot! and then order me to make more almond crispy i was fucking fumed! it's so easy to say, wait till she get her hands on it! there're so many steps and damn mafan (inconvenient) to make one lor! ask me to make some more! then i went to the back kitchen to pound the almonds,
while my sis made butter cookies in the dining room, with my mom and my grandma sitting by the dining table talking. then when i heard silence, i went into the dining room and sat down in front of my sister and whined,
" jou jou jou, hou song jou hai mai! " (in cantonese)
(" do do do, so fun to do is it! ") thinking my mom didn't hear it.
then suddenly, i heard my mom yelled,
" mat yeh! har! kong mat yeh! "
(" what! what did you say! ")
i said nothing and went speechless. i didn't expect her to be there. i was careless for that moment for not to look around before whining. then she yelled out this, i'll just translate it to english straight:
" ownself last minute do things one. help out a little at home cannot meh! "
then she walked away and i didn't say a thing. but obviously i have a lot to say!
firstly, i admit it was last minute but i knew i could finish making them on time! so what the heck? what's the fucking problem with doing things last minute? if it weren't for her bloody extra fucking butter cookies for all the aunties, i would have finish baking everything earlier!
second, she's the one who wasted my time in jusco, doing unexpected shopping.
thirdly, DIDN'T I HELP ENOUGH BY BAKING MOST OF THE COOKIES? i was ok to bake those cookies for our family. I WAS NOT OK WITH BAKING ALL THE COOKIES AND GIVING THEM TO EVERY TOM DICK AND HARRY! i understand if it was to give my grandma. after that she thinks it's an easy job, just very casually drop her order to have more cookies to give this aunty that aunty. what she think i am? A BLOODY DRIVE THROUGH AH? A VENDING MACHINE AH?
every fucking year i have to bake cookies ever since i started to learn how to bake. eh, do so many times already of course sien one lah! if i know having such a knowledge would be so troublesome, i'd rather i don't know how to make cookies at all!
i know lah she promised to give me an angpow if i make the cookies. but money is not everything! if i need the money i could have sell my cookies and make more money already! i bake for fun, and i only bake for certain people who're close to me. why must i treat others so fucking good? why should i waste so much of time and effort for others who are not as important?
then i was whining all these to my sis. i dunno she heard or not, but later she came back and then she yelled,
" next year you all can rest lah don't need do already lah! " in a very unsatisfied tone.
i think she's pissed because her butter cookies turned out to be ugly, not nice and most of it burnt because i didn't watch the time. and plus, she MIGHT heard me whining all those stuffs. after yelling that, she didn't even spoke to me. didn't even look at me making the cookies and all.
wk said, " the cookies sure not nice one " before i even told him the butter cookies were burnt. he said, " cos you do until very not happy ady " which was very true.
so anywaaaay, that was the story of the very unhappy baking this cny. the end.
here are 3 other cookies i made:
pineapple tarts which looked like mini tambun biscuits, you know, tau sar peah? some say looks like kaya balls.
i dunno what to name this but it's made of cornflakes, almond flakes, rice bubbles (or crispy) and selbourne cooking chocolate. can be an ideal chocolate breakfast bar ball. it was an impromptu recipe. previously i did it with honey but didn't came out really nice so i switched it with chocolate instead.
the other one is chocolate almonds,
before piping the white chocolate on it
after piping
i bought some very cute mini cups for it. damn expensive. rm 10 for only 50 of it. but it's so cute, made me so wanna buy it.
my sister helped out too! hehe
helping me to pound the almonds.
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speaking of cny, so far i only bought 2 pairs of shoes and 2 dresses! HOW HOW HOW! why am i so sad no new year clothes to wear. if you wanna talk about the dresses, both dresses are BLACK! i don't know why i'm liddat also cny go buy black dresses sigh T_T but those dresses very nice mah what to do, buy lah.
from wh
i especially love the back. well, it's nice if you could just ignore that stupid pimple.
from zara, very comfy.
both sides have strings to tie.
ok lah my mom just asked us to get out of the house later cos she wants to mop the floor. i might use the time to get myself a pair of new jeans and a new top for my first day so at least first day i won't be wearing old clothes. not so bad right right? after that the other days can wear all the other old clothes which i seldom wear la nobody will notice one wtf
T_T sigh why i'm liddat.
have a healthy and wealthy chinese new year.
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omggggggggg i bought nothing at all! stupid levis has no nice pants with my size, or has my size with ugly designs! and then guess has no nice tops at all! grrrrr! and then and then mng esprit yadda yadda all closed already.
ok i'm gonna wait for dad to start playing mahjong if not i'm gonna go dig for clothes which i never/seldom wear to be worn tomorrow. then maybe play computer games or something wtf i also dunno why i'm so lifeless.
wk's leaving to sarawak for a holiday tomorrow for 3 days. could have been with him but if i agreed to go my parents gonna hate me this year huhuhu T_T
ok it's almost 11 i don't think they're going to start the mahjong session so i'll go dig my old clothes for new/seldom worn clothes.
happy chinese new year again.
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